[28 May 2004|10:20pm]
One last entry for this journal.

Over the past month or so, this journal has been stalked by an anonymous poster, and a user with an anonymous journal. Because I knew my way around an IP address, I discovered that the anonymous poster was using the same computer as someone on my friends list. Someone I went to highschool with. And she denied the entire thing.

Now, the anonymous comments were way too intelligent to be from her, but I knew that she was allowing this person to use her computer. And lying to me about it at the same time. Which I think is incredibly cute.

It taught me not to trust people, even when you've been friends with them for years.

The anonymous journal is owned by the person who gave me my cat. And I love my cat. So I cannot hate him, though it'd be more than easy to. I was miserable in highschool because of him, though I don't let it get to me now.

So I'm leaving behind three negative things, with this journal:
X Friends I cannot trust.
X People who get pleasure from harassing me.
X The motives behind creation of this journal in the first place.

My new journal is a much happier, friendlier place.

And Robert, Billy and Julia can kiss my ass. =)
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[24 May 2004|12:02pm]


There, a teaser :) Aren't you guys excited?! =)

... 1 more week!
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[23 May 2004|10:50pm]
Webcam = Good.

But my CD drive is broken, so I can't use the photo-grabbing software, or the new book CD thing I got. =(
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[23 May 2004|09:59pm]
[ mood | content ]

Ryan woke up around 2, and we got dressed and walked down to Fry's. It's something like 3-3.5 miles from his house to there, but we made a couple of stops, including Smart & Final, where I picked up some stuff for beading, mainly some little containers to house beads I'm currently using, and some big baggies. Also got some chop sticks, which I have every intention of decorating. Woo. Fun times, yo.

Anyway, I hadn't been to Fry's before. Holy shit. Best store ever. We ate at the little cafe, had smoothies and shakes and bead bowls filled with good soup. I had a tulip-shaped lollipop too. I bought a new webcam, and am reading the manual at the moment. Expensive, erk. I also bought an HTML reference book that was marked down to $15 from $60. It's like a dictionary, alphabetized reference of HTML tags, and every possible variable for each one. woo.

Then I bought a CD that claims to have 1,000 "literary works" on it, in printable form. Including Shakespeare and Poe and Chaucer, etc. etc. So we'll see how that goes.

Bought a couple of plastic containers for beadstuff at various stores, also.

All in all, definitely impressed with the shopping. Made out with enough nice things that I'm not complaining:)

The walk home sucked, but my dad picked us up about 2 miles into it, I got my crap together and left.

So now I'm at home, and Ryan is playing with his computer at his place, so..

Hmm.

Need to find something to do.
Am prolly going back to his place either tomorrow night, or the following morning.

Last day of Vacation is Wednesday. Working early Thursday morning, if I remember correctly. Will call Carla in the morning to verify.

Off to install webcam. Will take pictures of completed bead projects soon. <3

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[23 May 2004|01:21pm]
I am all kinds of bored right now. :(
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[22 May 2004|01:44pm]
I took a pair of earrings that I made a week ago, and remade them, using more color, and a new theme alltogether. I am very, very proud of them. I turned around and made a bracelet and necklace to match.

Today, so far, I have made two pairs of earrings, two bracelets and a necklace.

Which brings my total of "new things to sell" to 27 items. 3 necklaces, 5 bracelets, 16 pairs of earrings, and 3 "home accents", because I made wine charms.

My goal is to have at least 8 of each category, so earrings are done, bracelets are almost done, and necklaces will be next. I have a few others to work on, mainly rings and hair things, but both are fun and easy, so I'll be spending much of today working on them.

I got ahold of my dad, who isn't happy about me being here. I couldn't work up the courage to ask him about errand running, but it doesn't matter because I can't reach kelly. And not being able to reach Kelly means I have no idea where Sherri lives. Hum.

We'll see what happens there. In the meantime.. Off to bead! =)
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[21 May 2004|09:51am]
Kelly is coming to get me soon. She's helping me run errands. Yay.

We're taking Ryan to work, dropping my stuff off at his house, picking up Sherri's pants, dropping them off at her house, going back to Ryan's work to have lunch, and to take him home from work, and then taking me home so I can get ready for the concert.

Janine is coming to pick up Tamra and I at 3. And then we have a 2+ hour drive ahead of us. Yay. I'm going to consume so much pizza today. :(
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[20 May 2004|06:05pm]
Oh yeah, and.

"And how's Xanax today?"
"He's having an anxiety attack."
"...."
"...."
"...."
"... Nevermind. He's fine, how're you?"

Ohhhhhh the irony.
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[20 May 2004|06:03pm]
Still posting :)

Ryan is here, fixing Brandon's computer.

Xanax got a shot, and is very unhappy with me as a result.

So Imma go bead, where nobody can bother me =D
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[20 May 2004|11:59am]
I think this is going to be my last post of the day, though it's only noon. Lots going on. First things first..

I have a new stalker :) This one has a LJ, though I have a feeling it was created just for me. Which is fine. I looooove the attention. :) Welcome to my journal. I will make more entries public so that you can read them/comment. =)

Ryan's schedule got a little messed up, but he's still coming over today. We are having fun playing with bead-things.. making jewelry for the premiere of my website. :) Woo. I love spending time with him and am glad that we're getting several opportunities to be together this week, even with his work schedule.

Tonight is Xanax's follow-up vet appointment. I wonder if he realizes? He's being extra-special loving today, and I'm not sure if it's that he's not feeling well because he needs the follow-up shot, or because he feels like it, or what. But I'm appreciating the furry cuddly love. =) (I miss working with Taylor every time I hear the word Furry. Wah!)

Tomorrow is the Trapt concert. Tamra, Janine and I are going. After, I'll be taken to Ryan's house, so I can sleep next to him at least, until he has to work the next morning. Then he works all day Saturday, I won't see him until 11pm or so.. Wah =( That'll make for a good chance to get some serious beading done. Hopefully he'll come home to a dozen or so new items to look at/try on :P

If you haven't noticed, I'm doing great right now. Dragged myself back onto my diet this morning, already worked out a bunch and am eating much better. Will be hard not to snag pizza from Ryan's work, or sandwiches and chocolatey coffee drinks from mine, but I'll manage.. Because I want to be healthy, and happy.. Yay. =)

Off to shower, now. Ryan's coming over soon! <3 xoxoxox

Dad phoned, crying. Melissa is experiencing a very bad pain in her back that may or may not be kidney stones, according to the doctors. They are at Tri City hospital right now.

When I phoned Ryan to let him know, we came to a conclusion that today would be a bad day to come over, since he wouldn't have a ride to work once he got here. And I'm not sure whether or not I have a ride to the vet.

Ryan IS coming over. Woohoo. He doesn't have to work tonight. Double WooHoo.
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[20 May 2004|11:06am]
Dear Rossi's Pizza,

I hate you and your stupid schedule. Give me back my Ryan.

kthx.

PS: Your pizza sucks! =)

Jen
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[19 May 2004|06:17pm]
Sometimes all it takes to make things good again, is to spend an entire 24+ hours with him.

And just being close with him, having the chance to -connect- with him, changes everything about the way we are.

I have never felt closer to him. I am glad that even though we are experiencing a bit of tubulence, he still loves me, and is willing more than ever to make this work. <3

Last night Janine, Ryan and I saw Mean Girls, ate pizza, saw Quinn and Jackie, and generally had fun.

Then we went back to Ryan's place, made some earrings, and went to bed.

Today was Family Resturant, best Grilled Cheese sandwiches ever, 7-11 chai and a nice walk home.

I'm enjoying my vacation immensely. Will be sorry when it's over, but am eternally grateful for the chance to spend some good quality time with the man I love. <3
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[17 May 2004|09:39pm]
+ Iced Venti Quad Raspberry Soy Mocha
+ Oven Roasted Ham & Turkey Sandwich
+ 1L Fiji Water
- Employee Discount
= $6.66

I will now order the same thing every time I eat there. <3
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[17 May 2004|08:15am]
The other good part about having a new screename is that I got a chance to talk to Jess this morning. To find out how she was doing, and hopefully before the conversation is done, to tell her that I love her.

I miss her. I really do.
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[17 May 2004|12:42am]
Everything in my life is a test right now. Nothing is easy, and I am struggling to stay afloat, though I'm sure that everything I go through now is to prepare me for bigger, better things that will be happening soon.

I am beginning to realize, slowly but surely, that I am evolving into a better, brighter person. Though I often struggle, and sometimes don't feel strong enough to keep going.. I will keep going, and the person I will be when I'm finished, and the way I'll feel when I get there is enough to motivate me to keep going, and to fight hard.

The last few weeks have been bad. The last few months have been hell. I'm struggling hard, but I'm learning for it, and everything I'm taught today will have a significant impact on where I'm at in ten or twenty years. I'm willing to accept this.

I have dreams and goals, and am too stubborn to let them slip through my fingers. Now is the time to go out and do what I've been meaning to do for years. It won't be easy, but it isn't supposed to be.
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[14 May 2004|09:06pm]
The power is going out in an hour, for eight hours.

omg, what am I going to do?

In the meantime.. Stolen from [info]fallencathedral:

I want anyone and everyone who reads this to post in here something they would LIKE to do with me SOMEDAY.

Then post this in your journal to find out what I want to do with you.
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[12 May 2004|11:16pm]
All I really have in life is my cat and my boyfriend.

But the cat pees on the floor and the boyfriend is a.. yeah.

Damnit.

I'm so alone. =D
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[10 May 2004|12:30pm]
http://www.livejournal.com/community/booksellers/20196.html?mode=reply

Juanita might appreciate this. :) I dunno, are you a Lemony Snicket fan?
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[09 May 2004|11:40am]
I have tons of bead-related things to sort. I'm trying to get it all done this week. I'm spending a ton of next week at Ryan's, so I'm going to put together a travel kit so I can keep beading when I'm at his house. He's pretty enthusiastic about helping me get my business going.. So if I can get his help on making some simple jewelry.. Woo! =)

I want to have enough jewelry to start the site by the 24th, so I can spend the last week of the month setting everything up online. Weee.. =)

*sorts massive amounts of beads into tiny little piles*
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[09 May 2004|12:37am]
Home. Yay. Bed. Now. Bye. =)
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